It’s Been a While Since I Was Your Man

by Brian Gilham on April 28, 2007

After a long night of drinking, partying, and hanging out with some great friends, I came home, threw some Advil down my throat, had a cold shower, and put myself to bed. Now, however, I find myself sitting at the computer having one of those “too-many-thoughts-going-through-my-head” kind of mornings.

I have a problem that affects me when I sleep sometimes. I’ll fall asleep just fine, that’s not the problem. The problem is that I frequently have these dreams that I can only describe as incredibly lifelike. I know a lot of people have dreams that require a pinch to shake themselves back to reality, but I sometimes wonder if mine are a lot more than that. Everything that went through my head from the time I fell asleep to the time I woke up was pure fiction, a figment of my imagination, yet I can’t help but sit here and feel like all of it was real.

When these dreams hit me they are rarely happy dreams. They are anxiety-ridden affairs. They bring forward any fears, doubts, or worries I may be experiencing at that moment. Tonight, they brought out a hell of a lot.

The sun is coming up. Perhaps a walk is in order.

{ 2 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Pierre 04.30.07 at 8:30 am

Have you considered that it might be lucid dreaming? Google!

2 Brian Gilham 05.02.07 at 8:57 pm

Have you considered that it might be lucid dreaming? Google!

I am aware of lucid dreaming, but it never occurred to me that I might be experiencing it during these spells. Thanks for the idea, Pierre!